Does anyone else have the feeling that the universe is constantly trying to kick them in the teeth? Or is that just me?
My friend Ellen assures me that God has many more important things to do than spend a day trying to make me miserable, and yet when I'm having one of those days where everything is going wrong, where does my mind go? To the pity party that is 'God hates me.' (Sorry all my religious friends, I'm sure this column is not for you)
Logically I know it's not true. The universe and God do not spend their days watching over my particular puny life and tripping me. But when you have a day where the baby woke at 6 and never went to sleep again, the triplets are tantruming, the car battery is dead, the bills are overdue and the oven wont turn on, why, oh why do I have to trip as I'm coming downstairs? It's just another kick in the teeth and it's the one that makes me bawl like a baby. Truly I deserve a break. I am overwhelmed, overtired and over it.
What about the theory that you reap what you sow and so, in theory, if my life is full of crap I must be putting crap out there? Well my blog posts would probably make it seem like all I do is complain so perhaps it is my fault that everything is going wrong still. Am I supposed to put a smile on and help an old lady across the street in order to not be tripped up constantly by life's pitfalls?
I mean honestly? If there was something I could do to get this baby to sleep during the day and not to scream bloody murder when I'm putting him on the boob to eat? I'd do it 100 times over even if it meant stripping and running down the street yelling "George Bush rocks!" Please God, tell me what I can do to get out of this hole. I am a nice person. I don't need another bruise, another night of no sleep, another crying jag, another plate of brownies to survive. I just need a way out.
So, is it me? Or is it possible that one's life can just be utter crap for a week straight and it's not about the universe trying to screw me? How do you make it through the tough times? I'd love mantras, affirmations and sheer positivity if you think it'll help!